Today was my 52 week weigh-in. Before we get to that, Apr 19th I thought I would go back again in time to, 2014. That date was ten times when i stepped on the size to see 394 looking back at me. It was happening. My worst concerns were manifesting, quickly, with the encouragement of regular binge episodes, I used to be going to 500 pounds back again.
I was regularly trying to get a handle on it, but it was as if my hands were covered in grease. I couldn’t get a solid grip. I’d be okay, do well for a few days, even log my food, crash then, binge and give up, again, until something grabbed my attention, again. This turnaround from relapse and regain over the last year has shown to be the most transforming for me, and emotionally mentally. Physically, too, sure, however–aside from the inner health benefits, the outward physical transformation to look at is truly the least of everything.
There’s a fascinating psychological dynamic that unfolds when you lose a dramatic amount of weight and then gain some of it back, or a great deal from it back again. I’m convinced this dynamic is exactly what makes successfully losing again appear more difficult. Suddenly, it becomes much more than managing our calorie costs, paying and exercising focus on our psychological condition and the associated causes. Now, we should do a bit more “mental work” even as we do our best to see through the guilt, shame and embarrassment associated with putting on weight and put our focus squarely where it’s most benefiting. This dynamic is powerful no matter if you blogged about your weight loss and published a written book or not.
Two things happened in that moment: 1. I immediately lost any desire to seize a Snickers club and 2. A rush was felt by me of guilt, embarrassment and shame. Now, most people operate with a much better set of filters. This scenario has played out lots of times, but usually your partner doesn’t vocalize the obvious. Even though the apparent isn’t mentioned, I’m real good at deciding precisely what they’re thinking. The silent-mental conclusion is much more severe and unforgiving and likely inaccurate always. How will I overcome this added obstacle ultimately? Perspective. Today Moving my perspective is paramount to my success.
I’ll spare you the self-indulgent list and cut to the run after: Works out I’m a pretty decent guy. I’m human. I’m real. I have no idea everything. I’m always available to learning. And the items I’m learning now are things imperative to my long-term success. I’m not saying weight gain after a dramatic reduction was a good thing, but easily change my perspective around I can obviously see where I can learn from and reap the benefits of this experience.
- Lithium perchlorate (LiClO
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- 8 years back from Nashville, Tennessee
- 6pm Motherlode Holistic Classroom
As this website moves forward, I’ll get into more of a “diary” type mode, much like in the beginning. Less “here’s what I think” and more “Here’s what I did so and am doing.” I’m thrilled at the thought of getting back again to the roots of this blog. To a journal in the purest sense Back again. The truth is, I tend to have problems with paralysis by analysis.
I make an effort to understand things out of every position, take it aside, dissect the elements, reach conclusions, maybe reveal my own philosophical conclusions and when I struggle then, it’s back again to the drawing plank. We can research ourselves and find out, learn, learn–the applying part is the critical step that’s often times hindered by the exhaustive analysis.